Chad Heap Aka Chad Bo First Year Missionary - Adventures In Missions

Good byes suck!!!!!!!!!!

Tue, 6 May 2008 00:00:00 GMT

This is I i feel as I am starting to say good bye to people I have minstered to in the last nine months of my life. It is not easy letting go but I am exicted to see where God takes me next. I love what one of my teammates told a lady today she said you know that we may not see each other again here on earth but think how awesome it will be to see each other in heaven. I know i will miss my kids that I played with and just the familys lifes who I touched in a way no one else could. I look back to when things fell apart here on our team and as I am sitting here i am thankful that God allwoed me to stay here and be a part of peoples lifes. I hope to move here in the future and contuine my realtionships if God will let me. so we will see.

Fiesta Time!!!!

Sat, 3 May 2008 00:00:00 GMT

Ok so this week i thought I would share photos from a birthday party I helped throw for some kids here in Mexico. It was so cool because this was there first ever piata. They were really exicted and so here are pics and a video from the party.

I am not a Super Hero

Sat, 26 Apr 2008 00:00:00 GMT

Since I have been here it has been so awesome to just help the people and just really build the relationships we have. Lately I have been a little fustared it seems like everywhere we go people Our just saying give me give me, and it is hard to say no and just not try to give into there every need. for example we build a house for a lady and during that time we were talking to people avout it and they were like well can you build me a house or where is mine and I am tinking we are not super heros and we do have alot of money we just can't jump and meet every need that comes our way. Like someone was telling me the other day you can only do so much for people for they get were they are depndind on you for everything. For me when I see a need the servant part of me is just wanting to jump in and help but sometimes helping is just beyond our reach and we can,t do anything. It really kind of aggravetedme the other day when i visted a lady and i aplogized because we had not been there in awhile, and i explained we had been busy bulding a house and helping with a project that was buliding houses. She grabbed me and started telling me of here need and was very forceful with saying well why can't you help me and build me a house and we told her before she has to have her own land. Also while we were there a man aproached and asked if we can help this other family who had 4 girls and a dad and a mom. The story was a little crazy they had been living in Texas but the dad had been deported to Mexico and they had no place to go so they were asking us to help and we were like this is beyond what we can do but we ended up taking them to our church and someone there helped them. I guess my point is that I have been to realize yes help the those in need but you can't just keep helping if they are going to keep begging you for more and more and want a dependce from you. So please pray as I am leaving in 2 weeks that I can help were I can and not feel guilty if I can't help someone because no i know that sometimes it just isn't fesable.

feelling like i am Walking alone

Sat, 19 Apr 2008 00:00:00 GMT

Since there has been a change in my team and now the last guy on my team is gone it has been really hard being the only guy. When you dont have someone other than a girl to tlak to or hang out with it gets kind of lonely. The other night I was just in my room alone and feeling like man i wish i had someone to just talk to and I felt the lord just saying I am here. So I just began to pray and cry out to him and really i am not alone I have him right there walking beside me. It is not easy not having another guy to always hang out with. It was really cool this last week when we were bulding a house for a family that i know pretty well, we had some other guys help us it was awesome to have them to just help and hang out with. I guess what I am pretty much trying to say is I miss the community of guys we once had here on my team. I know i can make 3 more weeks because I have God walking right beside me

Growth

Fri, 11 Apr 2008 00:00:00 GMT

This week was huge in many ways. We had a group come from johnson ferry baptist church from Georgia come this week. They had 260 people plus us. We helped as staff for the project. My role was helping translate for construction and also helping with encouragement. i worked with a few different teams in that role and I did well for as much spanish as I know. i began to see God shaping me for this summer and preparing me for my leadership role in Kentucky. I had a couple of times where he just really spoke to me through others. I had been kind of feeling like my original role which was supposed to be vacation bible school was not important but God told me different through someone else. that person told me God said your role is important. That was big for me. Also I just began to feel not important as a person and was praying about some of that and again God spoke to me through some one else and they said chad you are a joy to have around that really rocked my world. How when I had to times where i felt down God showed up and met me where I was. Also I have had some other things that I need to learn to just express my self and not hold back my true feelings keeping them inside is just causing me destruction. God is really open me to this. I began to just lash out at a person i was angry with and come to find out today he is no longer going to be my leader not because of that but because of his actions. I have mixed emotions when it comes to this i really can't explain it is hard right know I am still processing. I feel God is making me to step up and have the courage i need to fight the spirtual battles in me and around me. Please pray for the rest of my time here as i will be the only male living with 9 girls. I am not worried about it yeah it will be different but a new challenge. I have great support in a guy who is helping our team and I have my Mexico family to talk to and i can also talk to my teammates. so here I go on a journey of a different kind until the end in may 15.

A lesson in Leadership

Sat, 22 Mar 2008 00:00:00 GMT

This week My whole team is back out at the Gateway an AIM base here in Mexico. We helped with a group of High School students from Alabma. Our role was to help answer any questions that they may have, take them to minstry sites and help them with prayer walking. How was this a lesson in leadership you may ask well let me tell you. I was kind of put in charge of leading a group to my internship at the youth detetion center. I enjoyed the first day and it went well, the second day was when the lesson began I had to figure out how to get 20 people leaders and students from the YDC back to the Gateway mind you we only had one van. not everbody would fit. I had a plan to take me and the leaders on the bus but when the translator heard he began to complicate my plan which i knew would work. He didn't want to listen and hee tried just doubting my ability to work it out. I had it under control and yes my plan worked out. Early that week the same translator tried to get me to take a group to burger king instead of going back to the base when we were supposed to. He said oh if we get caught will just say it was your idea. Part of me was like yeah this sounds great but I am not going to jepordize myself for his hunger so i didn't do it. I really had a great week other than this. The team was great and i got to just hang out and talk to the kids. The best part was at the YDC when one of the leaders gave his testimony it was perfect for them because he had been where they are. Well i can't tihkn anymore so that is all for know.

just a few random thoughts

Sat, 8 Mar 2008 00:00:00 GMT

This is tough as i am sitting trying to gather my thoughts of what to talk about. i feel like i am drawing ablank here. Well I guess I can tlak about what I have been up to here. This week in class we have been talking about inner healing and prophesy. It has been well to hear what they have been sharing. I have really felt the spirit this week. thursday was the day when i could really sense the spirits power. I just had been doingquiet time and I have been reading a bible study and that day it was on Gods love, and i hadfelt lead to read reading in Isiah 50 verse 6 .  I offered my back to those who beat me,
       my cheeks to those who pulled out my beard;
       I did not hide my face
       from mocking and spitting. This verse just really made me think of his love and how i should stand up and not care who comes against but to just contuine fighting for him.Also during worship/class time we were singing i cant remember the song but it was something on love, and as i sat there i just began to sob because i could just sense the loving arms of the spirit right there with me. It was so awesome.Then on friday We had a class on prophsey it was very good and after they prayed propheticaly into our lives. they told me that they could see I would be a runner in the spirit and that i would carry the message of God every through my feet, also that I was like a young David, and That I would be a dancer in the spirit and with this dancing that i should dance in worship and this would bring inner healing for me. How crazy I dont dance, i practially have to left feet. I feel some confrimation in my life on one toher thing they said that iwould go where God has already established minstry and thing is that i am going to be a project leader this summer hopefully in kentucky for about 9 weeks.Also Minstry is going well We have really got back into the things we have been doing. . well anyway this is just a few random thoughts.

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Fri, 29 Feb 2008 00:00:00 GMT

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Moving On!!!!!!!

Tue, 26 Feb 2008 00:00:00 GMT

We are moving onward. last friday we returned to our neighborhoods to vist for the first time in two weeks and it was a very sad and joyful time. The people had no clue what was going on why we hadn't been there and why there was no church. There were rumors floating around but nobody knew the truth all they wanted was the truth. As i sat and saw their faces I began to see where I was 2 weeks ago right there where they were hungry for the truth and what was going on. All they wanted was the truth so they could be at peace and we told them what was best for them to hear. They comforted us by giving us coke and pie. It was just a time of fellowship. My favorite part was seeing a man i haven't seen in a while and just running up to him to get a hug. i am not a huggy person but for some reason i needed a hug. I have really enjoyed the time i get to vist with a fellow male beliver it is awesome. Then on saturday 5 of my teammates returned home because they felt like this is where God is calling them at this time. so there are 7 of us left tto move on and contuine the battle before us. We have also been moving these last couple of days. We have a 5 bedroom 3 1/2 bath house they we are going to be living in starting tommrow. We will be moving onward with our minstrys and contuine to move forward in the battle that we have before us. so please pray for us as things are begining to move forward and for the changes before us. I am exicted to see how the rest will unfold. If any of my teammates that went home are reading this I miss you. stay tuned for pics of our new house.

Decisons!Decisions!!!!!!!!!!

Wed, 20 Feb 2008 00:00:00 GMT

So these last couple of weeks have been filled with decisions. Last week our team was given terrible news that our mexico leader who had been minstering here for 15 years had commited moral faliure. This sturck our team in awe. People where then given decisions to make. He was no longer going to be our leader and we have been given the choice to see the program thorugh our go home. For me the decision was somewhat easy. I am tired of giving up and giving in when times get rough. I am so sick of the devil and i am not going to let him have victory over me or my team. why should i cower in fear and tuck tail and go home. God has called me to Mexico for a reason and unless he tells me so iam not going to leave i am going to stand up and move on with the progra. things are going to be diffrent minstrys may change but I am willing to stick it out. As of know some of my teammates have decided to go home and will be leaving saturday.. I will miss them, I respect their decision and know that they are doing waht they feel God has called them to do. I am hoping only the best for them. please pray for them and pray for us that have decdied to declare war with the enmy and contuine to battle. This week has been good we have been processing things still and helping lead a group from canada. We have been doing gardening in the morning and outreaching in the afternoon. So other than that hings our great.

some things to pray about:

please pray for my team as things change.

please pray as the leaders are looking for housing for the girls

I'm Hungry

Thu, 7 Feb 2008 00:00:00 GMT

This week we are fasting as a team. We are not totally going without meals but are given less. It has been a exprience not to forget. Yesterday we wern't givin breakfast or lunch. All I couldn't think about was when is dinner, but I sat and thought about that yesterday there is more than just real food my prayer was God give me a hunger for more of you. During class yesterday and today Bob our pastor was talking about how think about people who are straving and where they do not know where their next meal will come from. I thought about that today when I am hungry during this fast I know when food is coming my way. look at these people who get nothing. I should look beyond myself and give this time to God and just be selfless and be exicted in my time of hunger. I want to yearn moe for God.

Also, I want to talk about my minstry, it has been going well. I am really suprised at how i am fitting in well at the youth detition center. It is an awesome minstry. I was telling my mom about what i do and the first words that came out of her mouth were how are you able to do that you don't even like sports. My words to her were this is a challenge for me and it helps me to step out more. I still am adjusting a little bit because i am afraid of embrasment so i don't like to do things that would fully take me out of my box. so please pray that i can overcome this.

I"m Backkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thu, 31 Jan 2008 00:00:00 GMT

Hello,

Yes I am back in action in Mexico and things are going great. I started out with a sturggle with wether or not needed to stay here or go home. That was a battle in my mind for along time. I over that obstacle and contuining to strive for God. I have got back into my minstry and it is awesome to see how people are doing and how things have changed. I Have also made a change in my minsrty this semster. Last semester Iwas going to the children's home and belive me it was awesome but I felt like that was easy for me to do. So Iwas praying for God's direction one morning and he hit me if this that i should go to the youth detetion center. This is a major stretch for me because I am frightned by this kind of crowd. So here is my charcter builder in courage because it is going to take some faith for me to do this. Also here is a prayer requestfor you: when i first got back to mexico i got news that my sister is pregant so please pray for her. Also For all my supporters if you would like to help with a house we are buliding then you can send support for this porject by emailing me first for info.

Homesick for Mexico

Mon, 7 Jan 2008 00:00:00 GMT

As time has been going on I have been thinking about how i can't wait to get back to Mexico. Reading all my teammates blogs is not helping. I am exicted we go back next tuesday and am exicted to see what God has in store for me. Like I have heard here while on break from one of my friends life is an adventure so live like it is. Also my break has been good I have been having an awesome time here in New york. I have seen family i haven't seen in years. It has been cold and blowing but iam enduring.

Making an impact

Thu, 29 Nov 2007 00:00:00 GMT

It is been hard because sometimes i feel i am not making an impact on anyone here or i feel like Iam not making a diffrence. I know this is not true this last sundaya boy and church ran up and hugged me and someone asked him in spanish what he is going to do when i have to leave and the boy responded with i am going with him. That really touched me helped really know my purpose here in Mexico. I don't speak their language and sometimes i feel worthless and like iam failing but this one kid helped me realize i am not. Also on tuesday we went to Garnjas the community I am working in and we had dinner there. we helped make the food and it was fun to be with the belivers and their children. The smile on their faces is awesome. I also have to rember how the kids just love me. Like i said i can't speak much of the lanugage but God is allowing me to speak something bigger into their lifes and that is my passion and love. so I know now that i am making an impact.

this week in Mexico contunied

Wed, 21 Nov 2007 00:00:00 GMT

So my week just kept being awesome. On thursday we were out visting our community and I had the oppurtunity to fix a family's roof, I went for a run with the lady in my profile pic, and yes i painted one of her finger nails. The best part was when we went to a lady's house who usally is there and her husband is not well this time it changed he was there and she wasn't. so the girl's urged me to speak to him. so I began just speaking to him in the best spanish i knew and was a pretty good conversation. i asked him if he ever comes to uor church and he said he hadn't been in a while. then one of my teammates said ask him why. It was cool he said he had been working. I am exicted that maybe i will have the oppurtunity to minster to someone and please pray for him because he drinks alot and ussaly is not honem. oh i almost forgot he came to church on sunday which was amazing. I had a little bit of a struggle on saturday when I called home my mom and i were talking and she knows i am not coming home for christmas instead i am going to vist other family. so on saturday I was talking to her and I was telling her that i love her and she was telling me no you don't and so this really hurt so please pray for my me as i am being to feel guilt and just struggling with feelings that i a wrecking her christmas.

This week in Mexico

Thu, 15 Nov 2007 00:00:00 GMT

This week has been alot of fun, I have had some really great exprineces. On tuesday we went to our community to vist the people there and we visted a family that we always do and usally the dad is not there because he drinks alot. WEll on tuesday he was there it was cool because he was actually intercacting with his son. I got to play soccer with them. I really didn't get one on one time with my dad or either of my step dads growing up. So i kind of was alittle bit jealous. Then we went to our discpleship class and i teach the kids. usally they are off the wall crazy but this time they were well behaved. What a great day it was to see some change in things. Then on wednsday i went to my internship at the childrens home and it seems like the kids are growing more closer to us everytime. it is so fun to just either sit and hold a kid, tickle them or play with them. I am really exicted to see what else is in store for the rest of th week. stay tuned for more.

A little is alot

Thu, 8 Nov 2007 00:00:00 GMT

Sometimes I don't stop and think how grateful I should be for what I have, last week when i was minstring in las Granjas (my ministry neighborhood) i began to realize how diffrent people live. They don't have water or electric and we went for bible study on tuesday night, i taught the kids class and we had to do it by candle light, I did begin to think how fortunate i was to have electricity till I had to have candles on a table with kids. then on thursday we were invited to eat at house there and there was a bunch of us there. she only put out a little food but it became a lot. I thought to myself this isn't enough but it made it. The lesson I learned from these two situtaions is that a little light or a little food can go along way. we should defintly be thankful for what we have.

Bulidng Character

Thu, 25 Oct 2007 00:00:00 GMT

so this week in class we have been talking about buliding character. We were asked how do you want to grow in your charcater. for me it is like this i want to have courage to stand strong in the lord and really be able to step out in faith and serve the lord. I really feel like i am insecure in myself and want to be stronger. this morning in my quiet time i read in 2 kings 18-19 How King Hezekiah was pressed by the asyrians and they were telling him how they were going to conquer his city but he kept the faith and God provided for him. he did not back done, and that is what i want for my life to stand up for what i belive in and not be ashamed to share the gospel. I know that i let be conquer me with words or just talking about me but not anymore iwant to be able to step up and get ready for the battle and allow God to work through me.

My week so far!!!!

Thu, 18 Oct 2007 00:00:00 GMT

This week has been challenging to me. On tuesday we went out to minister in one of the communitys here and it went well. We met a three diffrent familys the first lady gave us chili peppers from her garden, and she told us to try it. first my teammate tried a little bite, and the lady said no bigger bite. so me bieng bold i took the whole little pepper and stuck it in my mouth. i screamed for water and my mouth burned for 20 minutes, and we visted another older lady who gave us popsciles the one i had was mango con chili. I have enjoyed this time of minstery because we get to just vist people and talk to them. Then yesterday my internship was tough because all the kids pretty much hid in there rooms. they came out a little before we left but not much. today i am going out to do more visting. I have been struggling with hearing God's voice this week. i feel he may be distant. i am ready for more adventures so look out who knows what i will eat next. adios

My internship pics

Sat, 13 Oct 2007 00:00:00 GMT

I love working with all of these kids. I have been to call them my own. It is so fun to be there on wednsdays and fridays. look forward to more to come.

What god has been showing me so far!

Sat, 13 Oct 2007 00:00:00 GMT

I was reading in my quiet time one day and I prayed to the lord what is discpleship and these verse were shown to me. I was not sure what it ment at first so i took it to my Leader. He spoke truth in my life and this is what I feel was shown that I shouldn't worry about what my family thinks and I should let them go because they are not wanting to serve the lord. this doesn't mean not to love them it means loving God and through that they will be honered. You see i have struggled in prepartion for this trip with support and my family began to press in hard oh you should get a job and car and go back to college. For awhile I fell into this and then God reopened the door for my trip but my family did not approve. I am feeling like God has really began showing to let go of them and follow him. At this point i want to break free and not look back and truly follow him. Also a prayer request I am struggling with my team I am finding it hard to open up and share, i feel like iam falling out and want to draw back in so please pray that i can get back in tune.

57As they were walking along the road, a man said to him, "I will follow you wherever you go."

58Jesus replied, "Foxes have holes and birds of the air have nests, but the Son of Man has no place to lay his head."

59He said to another man, "Follow me."
But the man replied, "Lord, first let me go and bury my father."

60Jesus said to him, "Let the dead bury their own dead, but you go and proclaim the kingdom of God."

61 Still another said, "I will follow you, Lord; but first let me go back and say good-by to my family."

62Jesus replied, "No one who puts his hand to the plow and looks back is fit for service in the kingdom of God."

searching for internships

Sat, 29 Sep 2007 00:00:00 GMT

The journey as offically begun. This week we where told to begin asking the lord about our internships. They gave us a list of options and I begin to pray where God would want me to go. On Wednsday we were taken to diffrent locations I chose to go to Esthers which is a childrens home. first we had to got to the prison and i knew after begining ther it was not for me. Then we went to Esthers the lady who was there greeted us and would not let us in because esther was not there. So I began to pray to my self that we would be let in and she called esther and our leader worked everytihng out. Finnaly we were going in as soon as i got in a little boy ran up and hugged me. I knew then this was the place for me. Then someonelse began to play with him. then I met Octavio who at first was shy but I began tickling him and warmed him up to me. He started by putting crayon shavings on my head, then he found tortillas at me, and before we left he tried to throw a rock at me. He then took me out to the colympias (swings) i didnt know this but it sounded like fun. I pushed him and another kid ont the swings. then we wnet down the slide it was very muddy. Then he took me in there classroom where he taught me animal names before we left. then I went back on thursday and played with the kids. On friday we started our internship. I played with the kids on the swings and slide. then migul took me to play throwing hula hoop and hit me in the head. then he took me in the classroom to play ball. it was fun because everytime i would hit him with the ball he would lay down like he was dead. he would hit me in the leg or arm and i would act like i was hurt. then we wnet to play baseball on the way this little girl said to me hey sister it was fun i corrected her to say brother but she only wanted to call me sister the whole time. their rules for baseball were simple me against 5 of them, they had 6 bases, they could either hit or kick the ball, they could have 2 people on one base, and finally they could run whenever. it was a fun chaotic mess. So look forward to more funny stories from me about Esthers. hopefully know major injuries to report.

Que Pasa De Mexico

Sun, 23 Sep 2007 00:00:00 GMT

Hola! I am in mexico and it is been great. it is very hot but i am enduring the heat. so far we have been doing some assigments that were given to us the first assigment they dropped us off in a colina and told us to find our way around and locate certain things and then got to the bus stop and make it to the plaza fiesta where we had to buy doughnuts and candy. Then we had to go to the marketplace and find frogs, marachi hats and a pancho. This was a lot of fun and we completed our assigment, then yestrday they assigned us to cross the border wgich was a nightmare we stood in aline and waited for 1 hour to cross. then we had to find the post office and some second hand stores. then we had to eat at churchs chicken. from this experince i saw that even though we were in america the restraunt was just like being in mexico. So far i have also played futbol (soccer) with some local kids and we have had alot of growth as a team. OUr housing for the guys is a two room house and we shared it with a local. we have to walk ten minutes to the church and the commuinty is really poor. Put i am exicted to see what God has in store for me so stay tuned for more of my journey.

Training Camp in 3 words

Wed, 19 Sep 2007 00:00:00 GMT

Training camp was very cool stepping offthe plane aweek ago into the unknown. I began to meet people on my team and it was awesome. what an experince.well here is a summary of how it went. I learnedalot about myself and fully began to turn things over to God. I became vulnerable and really opened up to others and let myself go. Know it is 1:20 a.m. on wednsday septemper 19 and i am leaving in 3 hours for the airport. Ok so back to camp life i slept on a plywood bed, showered with a water hose, and ate awesome phyiscal and spirtual food. Let me tell you God began a mighty work in me and i am ready to go and serve. here are some things i dealt with: I let go of being a people pleaser because the only person we needto please is God. I begin to unwind the hurts from from my past like betrayal from friends, being picked on in school, letting me walk over me. these things at first made it hard for meto trust my team because i felt like waht if they don't like me or what if they are just saying things to make me feel good and really they don't. well i have crushed all of these things under my feet because the enemy will now longer have a hold on my life. well i go to stop because i am losing it.

loving one another!

Thu, 12 Jul 2007 00:00:00 GMT

11This is the message you heard from the beginning: We should love one another. 12Do not be like Cain, who belonged to the evil one and murdered his brother. And why did he murder him? Because his own actions were evil and his brother's were righteous. 13Do not be surprised, my brothers, if the world hates you. 14We know that we have passed from death to life, because we love our brothers. Anyone who does not love remains in death. 15Anyone who hates his brother is a murderer, and you know that no murderer has eternal life in him.

16This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers. 17If anyone has material possessions and sees his brother in need but has no pity on him, how can the love of God be in him? 18Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth. 19This then is how we know that we belong to the truth, and how we set our hearts at rest in his presence 20whenever our hearts condemn us. For God is greater than our hearts, and he knows everything.

21Dear friends, if our hearts do not condemn us, we have confidence before God 22and receive from him anything we ask, because we obey his commands and do what pleases him. 23And this is his command: to believe in the name of his Son, Jesus Christ, and to love one another as he commanded us. 24Those who obey his commands live in him, and he in them. And this is how we know that he lives in us: We know it by the Spirit he gave us.

I was reading this passage along with my devotions yesterday, and it was talking about how we should love someone now matter what they do. if they are un loving, annyoing or anything. well it was put in the camp perspective but i begin to think about it in the mission filed. How we as teams are going to be living toghther and working togther and we will get on each others nerves, but now matter what we have to be willing to love one another and build each other up. Also it asked a question about what is the world's view on love and what is the lord's view on love. well the ansewr i thought of was world view is this it is more of a feeling and an emotion where as spiritual love is in action. If we love others then we love christ. my prayer is that now matter what we will love each other and build each other up. Lord help me to be loving to my teammates and help me to just build them up and be there in their time of need. help us to have unity amongest us.

lost?

Thu, 5 Jul 2007 00:00:00 GMT

I thought I would title this this way because this wat happend to me on tuesday night. I got lost. My friend and went on break from camp toghther and i am in grand forks North Dakota. we went on a bike ride on tuesday night and on the way back he decided to have me lead the way. He didn't tell me if i was right or wrong he just let me go. I kind of got lost. I start to think about this and our realtionship with christ and how sometimes he is there with us allowing us to make the decisions and letting us lead ourselves and being right there knowing if we will stumble, fall or get lost. My friend finnaly gave me ahint on how to get back and I think that God does the same thing to us when we get lost. You see I have very little self confidnce and a low self esteem and my frind did this to me to help build those things up. i wanted to just give up and cry put he would not let me. just like when we want to give up on life and just quit God is there to help guide us and give us directions. So don't worry if you get lost in life God is beside you to help you when you do.

STRETCHED

Sat, 23 Jun 2007 00:00:00 GMT

This last week of camp was very trying times for me. i was stretched to by breaking point. i loved the kids i worked with but i had some tough obstacles in my way. many kids came to know christ and many wanted to serve him better. it was awesome to love on these kids. I had a 10 year old boy who i just adore he always wanted to hang on me and i was a little bit irrated at first but begin to love it. I got my personal space stretched. I also had to become a parent chasing bibles around, trying to get 10 and 11 year old boys to listen and go to bed. what fun. I had a couple of real rough spots where i wanted to quit and give up but i rembered that we have to keep running the race for jesus. During chapel 2 boys i was sitting by decided they were going to play around instead of worshiping. I got very angry i tryed to tune them out that didn't help, i tryed pulling them outside and that didn't work finnaly the speaker began to speak and they stopped. I really felt like i failed which i know is o.k. Then there was a problem where a boy messed his pants and i had to deal wth it. I wanted to cry for him because i have been there done that. he was n the cabin with the others when i smelled something and i had to secertly pull him out. that was so challenging for me. I helped him and we made it trough it. I am so thankful that i was tested in these ways and by having a cabin that wouldn't go to sleep. God knows when to send us a challenge and we hsve to be willing to execep and go for it. I really felt like i was stretched to by breaking point like it was tug of war and i was about to lose but i held in there becsause God was my strength. I also had a kid break my heart when he said he did want t accept jesus at camp because he wanted to wait a year and do it at home. i thought to myself we are not promised tommrow. so please pray for that kid. Also I found out a kid i helped at the varisty camp went home and thought about sucide. All these things make me think of our theme vese John 10:10 the thief comes to steal,kill,and destroy, but i come that they may have life and have it to the full. I always try to stop and think of that verse in times of struggle. I am exicted for another week ahead we have 14-15 year ols coming in.

Camp Update/ prayer requests

Tue, 12 Jun 2007 00:00:00 GMT

well 16-18 year old camp started sunday and it is going great. I started out got of with a negative outlook at first but I changed it by monday morning. On sunday I got a kid in my camp who has never been to camp before in his life let alone a bible camp. scary huh? Well he has been doing ok. I also noticed he does not even now how to read the bible. We have to do memory verses and i think he is struggling. so please pray for him. There also some campers who have had a rough home life and it shows. Also my stepdad will be having surgery tommrow on his heels. the are putting a metal plate on each side and he has a 50/50 percent chance of ever walking again so please pray for him that the surgery will work. Also please pray for me as i am gooing through a spirtual battle of my own. I have had a lot of attacks from the enemy lately and am slipping omy personal devotion time.

Summer Fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mon, 4 Jun 2007 00:00:00 GMT

Camp is fun!! it is are offical first week of camp and we have 12 to 13 year olds. i have 6 in my cabin I had 7 but one had to go home because of home sickness. Today i learned how to run the archery range. all the campers are alive so i guess i did ok. I am exicted and doing great. if any one wants to send me some mail fahocha bible camp 8799 21st NE Warwick, ND 58381 send any thing.

Update

Fri, 1 Jun 2007 00:00:00 GMT

God is so good. I called home today and my stepdad answered. Yes he is out of the hospital but he stills needs surgery. They will be doing this as soon as they can. please pray for my mom as she is going through trying to get the settlement money from the accident. she is trying to also get the house wheel chair ready and have a ramp built.